Mutiny on the Road!

damn cops! so yeah this time i didnt get pulled over but one of the guys did. I swear I think cops do it because they run the plates and realize who “he” is. I guess a fan of NEP would know that he isnt much on talking to strangers. Its not to be mean. Its just that its a bit scary for the guy. Good thing there is Michael around for him. I dont think im very intimidating on the seat of a BMW R1200GS lol but dont let my hispanic attitude come out.

So the cop at first is walking over with a huge smile on his face. Eventually after a 10 minute what he calls a “routine” stop the cop give him a warning and gets himself an autograph. Kinda a cheesy way to get an autograph eh? Cops!! Kinda reminds me of the Gabriel Iglesias joke where he mentioned giving the cop donuts LOL. Oh yeah im sure that cop would have been pissed off. After all it was a fucking Texas State Trooper. I think he was more star struck though than anything. I dont recall ever seeing a trooper smile that much in my life, especially in TX.

So we left Tulsa and headed for San Antonio. What I call the VERY scenic route. Left Tulsa south on 75 going through Okmulgee. Funny name eh? Making our way south to McAlester and then heading southwest on 69 or if you still want to call it 75. Eventually it takes you into TX and into Dallas where 75 turns into I-45. Didnt go that way though. There was something about the town of Atoka. I just liked it. Nice place to stop and just relax a bit. Funny though because there was NO Jack in the Box’s along the way. If you have ever been north on 75 going into OK then you know once you leave TX you are shit out of luck finding a Jack in the Crack. So we stopped for something to each and I opted for Jack in the Box rather than some ol’ diner. Oh yeah Ultimate Cheeseburger, medium fries and a fucking cold ass drink. I swear I re-filled my drink 3 times. I paid for it later with piss breaks. Ehhhhhh!

After a quick 30 minute food frenzy we headed out again. We had different ideas about where to go. Mutiny I tell you! Lets go this way….No lets go that way…..No, I think we should go this way. Talk about deviating from GPS plans. I had looked into a nice route that would go west of Dallas. Leading us to Fredricksburg and eventually into San Antonio. AT&T Center is not right in the heart of San Antonio so its good that there wouldnt be a traffic catastrophe there! So we decided to deviate from 75 and take 121 southwest into Grapevine, Richland Hills area and into Fort Worth.

Not a big fan of taking freeways but we did leave 121 and hopped on I-35W and into Burleson. A town that brings back memories. I used to go there every summer break from school and stay with my aunt and uncle for a week or so. I loved it. Back then we would goto a place called Brown’s Mountain. Nice views of Burleson, Fort Worth and beyond from there. I remember the one time my cousin Jason and I borrowed my uncle Mike’s blazer with permission and we sped off up Brown’s Mountain and into the nearby neighborhood where we found a baseball field and park. We started doing huge ass donuts in the truck and suddenly without warning…. …WHACK! I accidentally slammed the driver side door into a huge wood post. Oh the agony. The pain I suddenly felt. No not whiplash. My asscheeks getting a beating for fucking the blazer up. We got out and just stared at the damage for about 15 minutes. Dazed….Confused….WTF?!? I was in this “why does shit like this always happen to me” mood. After the initial shock wore off we went back up to Brown’s Mountain and parked in an empty lot where a house was soon to be built in a cul de sac. We looked out to Fort Worth and into the skies seeing the airliners coming in and leaving and then we just sat there. “What do I tell Uncle Mike?” My cousin kept saying “I dont know cuz.” There was no holding back now. It was getting dark and we promised to be back before it was too late. So we got back in the truck and headed back. A drive that only takes ………5 minutes!!! They lived in a subdivision right off the road Brown’s Mountain was on which eventually was a back road you could take into Crowley. I kept thinking why couldnt this be a longer drive. We made it back though and we just confessed the truth. The truth shall set you free…..PRAISE THE LORT! lol….Hallelujer!!! lol……So we did…correction I did get in a little bit of trouble but my Uncle Mike was cool about it and he didnt think much of it anymore after the next day. Later on we had a few Lone Star beers outside in the backyard and he told me I kinda did him a favor because he was ready to get rid of that blazer and get a new truck anyways! BINGO! Not in trouble! This coming from the same Uncle Mike that would head down the hill to Albertson’s and buy me a case of Lone Star Light! LOL. Hey I was young and any kind of beer I could consume was cool to me! Those were the days. The days that started my traveling trek.

So we left the hoorah of the big city and ended up on 67. The names of towns began to remind me of many things. Cleburne….reminded me of the ol’ Cleburne Cafeteria in Sugar Land across from the Imperial Sugar Plant. Then there was Nemo. Enough said….unless you just really are that out of sync and dont know but Nemo is the name of the fish in the Pixar movie Finding Nemo. Then came Dublin. Yeah I was thinking “OK Dublin TX! Maybe its like Dublin Ireland and ill find a pub with some good ol’ Guinness!” Yeah right, but a nice place to pass through indeed! We passed by Proctor Lake…..Yeah ever seen the Police Academy movies? Ok so there was a character named Proctor. Well that came to mind. See, my mind was in motion. Its not over yet! Farther up was Comanche! Self-explanatory right? Then the aptly named town Blanket! I think you can see why I chose this route. Blanket being the name of one of the Jackson kids!

We came to Brownwood and the road turned into 377. I was once again needing a “waterfall” break. Eh last time i down 3 refills of fucking coke! lol….We passed a few towns like Brady and Mason. Funny, I knew guys by those names in high school. For the most part nothing really except for nice scenery and some really good spots to take pics. Signs were welcoming us with the thought of Fredricksburg not too far away and once again the road signs went from saying 377 to 87. Geez make up your mind man! Must have been drunk Texans giving the roads their numeric names.

Before getting to Fredricksburg we stopped for a little break to walk around and just relax. I settled under a nice shady tree and The road up ahead mentioned Luckenbach. Where Willie Nelson always holds his music festivals. At this point we broke off and I went solo. I continued down 87 until I got to I-10 while the guys broke off and headed to Luckenbach and eventually to the Canyon Lake area into New Braunfels and eventually to I-10 from the other direction near Seguin and we met up at the hotel in downtown just 15 minutes away. Not that I need to but I checked in under the name Buzz Buzzer and the hotel clerk started laughing. I think she needed that laugh too. She looked stressed. Gotta love per diems! Later that evening we met up and was asked where was a good place to eat. So I mentioned Chris Madrid’s Hamburgers and I got the ok to order! Then a local told me the best burgers were from The Lord’s Kitchen. I though he was fucking talking shit but there really is a place there called that. We didnt go there though. Figured it was best to stay with first laid plans. So I brought up the menu and we made our decisions. Last time i was there i got the Tostada Burger Regular and it was damn good. I figured I would just get the same thing. Also in that order was a Porky’s Delight and a Flaming Jalapeno Burgers. This time I opted for the Macho size. Holy Fuck!! can you say food!!! Shit! Damn near killed myself eating that thing! If your ever in San Antonio TX and want a good burger just look up or look up Taco Haven off Presa. Damn good menudo and stuff…..

So with the 3rd leg well in motion and Boston, Pittsburgh, Bristow, Tulsa and soon San Antonio out of the way, that leaves Houston, Dallas, Atlanta, Tampa and West Palm Beach for the USA dates. Then a short break and off to Sur America for four more dates winding down this lovely tour and back home to my cats and my lazy life lol. Yeah I kinda miss that! I dont go out much but im sure one of my good female friends would like her shopping buddy back! LOL….Spend spend spend!!! Lets just hope no more mutiny on the road! Houston is notorious for arresting rockstars for some ungodly reason so they can make a name for themselves. Lets see…..Marilyn Manson, Ozzy, Angus Young, Santana, Cash Money Millionaires…just to name a few!

From Tulsa to San Antonio was one of my favorite rides. For 616 miles it was a nice ride. Its now 2:15am and im beginning to think the route planned for Friday into Corpus Christi is going to be changed. I think i’d rather take I-10 right into Houston to the Beltway and maybe even sleep in my own cozy bed. Who knows. Im too spontaneous. Ill say it but watch I wont do it!

Irreconcilable Emotions; Inspired by a Tyler Perry Movie

not in a sad mood. just was inspired to write this post after watching a movie last night which i will mention in the post.

enjoy..happy reading…..

Irreconcilable Emotions

Are you single? Divorced? Married but not happy? I think many of us today are in this situation. We seem to be happy with our current lives emotionally but deep down there are those demons within that we cant get past. We fool our friends and family into believing that we are ok. Many factors cause these thoughts. Some of use are overweight, maybe underweight, used, cheated on…etc. We let these feelings control our lives and our destiny.
For me, im 34. Not in great shape and right now there is not much I can do about that. I need surgery in my ankle to repair a ligament that is causing me pain and discomfort which has kept me from continuing on with my P90X workouts. Sure I could do the workouts but its not worth the pain of not being able to walk the next day. That’s how bad it gets. Many of you know my last relationship ended in 2002. Ive since been single for many reasons. One being cheating women. Sure not all women cheat but after seeing the track record most of my friends have been through its not a very encouraging though. So I have kept from any dating for that very reason. Days go by and im just fine. Then days go by that I feel like shit. Thus going back to what I stated in the first paragraph of this post. We hide our thoughts and emotions. Many of us hoping that that special person will come into our lives or come back into our lives.
Last night I watched a very good movie that showed feelings of many emotions. From great happy moments. Laughing and joking to heartbreaking and mournful ones. Im talking about Why Did I Get Married Too by Tyler Perry. This guy makes amazing movies and I really think this second movie hit it right on the button for a perfect movie about married life and dating life in general. They all meet up for their annual “Why did we get married” vacation and in the end one couple announces a divorce, another cheats on her husband, another doesn’t trust her husband and an ex-husband who couldn’t live without his ex-wife comes back to see her. All along hiding the fact that he was dying of cancer. Janet Jackson plays the wife of the couple getting the divorce and she and her husband were arguing over money she made from a book. They had lost a child that died and in the end, she embarrasses him at his office. He walks out of his office and gets in his car and speeds away. Moments later he is hit by a uhaul truck and eventually dies. That was a powerful moment of the movie. Just as when he was drinking and attacked his wife. The raw emotion of what people really go through is at times unbearable to see or hear about. Its reality. Tyler Perry hit that reality perfect in this movie.
I refuse to date because although I know I am a stronger individual now, I still cant let go of the fact that someone in my life still means everything to me and today I cant have her back. I know this. Its that thought of knowing the truth that hurts. I don’t compare other women to her but whether you’re a man or woman, someone has to really have hit you right in the heart for them to take it because even in the event of a split they give you your heart back but we refuse to take it back. That’s me. That’s many of us. We chase after things we cant have simply for the thrill of seeing if we can have it. Im not enjoying that anymore. My heart is really just too tired to move on. Hence why I have stayed single. We can say we will be fine single and for the most part with good positive people around us we can and will be ok but there will always be times we miss the affection and the smallest of things. Maybe that post it on the bedside, or that small kiss goodbye. Maybe even something like a corny gift that gets you right where it counts.

We all know that we have to move on in our lives. People that were once our present are now our past. Some of those people remain in our lives as friends. That can be a good thing and a bad. Good because there are many good memories still to be made but bad because we think of those that we once shared so intimately. Life is cruel only to be kind, thus bad begins and worst remains behind. That’s a quote from Hamlet my favorite play by William Shakespeare. It’s the scene where Hamlet has just killed Polonius “dead for a ducat…dead” and explains to his mother about his rage of her sleeping with his father’s brother and how he is responsible for his death. About a year ago I wrote another blog called Open Road Isolation. A blog that I wrote while motorcycling. This blog and that one are similar in thought. Why would I write something so similar? I guess because its whats on my mind now.

Since June 29th I have rode just about 15,000 miles by motorcycle across the United States and in Canada. Those rides were very relaxing and calming. Giving me time to think about my past and my future. They also allowed me to think of my friends that are no longer here. Like Paul Gray for example. Even when riding with two other people it can feel lonely. I haven’t exactly reached best friends status with the guys but I will take what I can get. Its an honor alone to be with them when I am. I find myself traveling a lot on my own. For my own reasons. Breaking off away from the group and seeing different areas. Allowing myself to think about the things that haunt me. So your probably there thinking I think just negative thoughts. Well sometimes I do but the majority of the time they are happy thoughts. It’s the thrill of going to some new place ive never been. I cant recall the number of times Ive been to a town called London or Syracuse instead of Syracuse NY. Its interesting to see these places. Not big cities but little towns named after such larger places. There is a thrill to turning the key and starting the motorcycle and putting on a helmet and just riding away somewhere different. It’s a great way to get rid of those horrible nasty thoughts we keep locked up.

In the end we cant let these emotions control our lives. Ive accepted that I cant make anyone happy. Im fat, ugly and jealous. About the worst combination that can ever be put together. I once made someone happy but that ended with my jealousy. Today I still worry about things that I shouldn’t. It’s a rough road but one im still riding down and will continue for a while. I honestly believe I would rather stay single because there is only one person I truly ever cared about and I lost her 8 years ago. Not her friendship but that side that I still crave at times. My friends, don’t give up. No matter what situation your in you cant give up. There is life out there. There is more life for us to live and experience. Be strong and remember that if something truly was meant to be then it would be in your grasps now. If has come and gone then it wasn’t. People come and go in our lives but our friends are always there. Even if that friend is someone you love but cant have. Rely on your friends and they will support you.

back roads

Tour Break….Home!

its good to be home but stepping away from the rigors of concert touring gets to me sometimes. Im used to being up in the early AM and riding to the next city. Im used to eating at certain times and im used to being “at the office.” lol

At this point, we have completed 30 shows since June 29th. With 10 more to go in the USA and 4 in South America. I really am ready to get back on the road and just keep going. I love to travel. Too bad we wont be hitting up Europe this year. Next year though!

The Slipknot guys are releasing the new DVD. Its from Download in England. One of the last few shows Paul Gray performed. I miss him. Seems like only yesterday Paul died and when I last talked to him. Now here it is…September. Wow. The time just flies by. I think Paul’s memory is what keeps me going. Before I had no interest in continuing in this work. I just wanted to ride the motorcycle for months.

Thankfully my passion for music, the guitar and drums never faded. Well it did slightly but I recaptured my skills and my talent. Ive also decided that its been long overdue for me to seriously work on my weight and getting back down to my athletic days again. My football weight. Would make Kenpo and MMA training much easier!

So anyways….im home…relaxing until Sept 13th. Then it begins again in Boston MA. Cant wait!

Thats it for now…more to come in the next day or so!!!