A New Motorcycling Journey Begins Soon…..

This past week has brought many thoughts into my mind. I have made the decision to NOT go on the next tour run. Instead with the death of Paul my mind has been racing with emotions. If you know me well enough those emotions drive me to travel by motorcycle for extended periods of time.

I am planning another trip but not sure just yet where to go. I was thinking of some new routes in Europe maybe. My mind really isnt in work mode at the moment. I dont want to touch any instruments or anything. Playing guitar and drums the last few days and being back at home just doesn’t have that spark as it once did. I remember a few years ago I went almost 3 years without picking up a guitar and strumming a chord and nearly 4-5 years without picking up drumsticks. Once I felt I had my life back on track I was able to do so again and freely enjoy it. Now this total emptiness has overcome me. Of course we all get over a death of a friend or loved one but sometimes it takes us longer to get back to doing the things we enjoy.

When I travel by motorcycle I take the roads least traveled when possible. i like to be alone and to myself. It makes for thinking and enjoying the scenery better. Right now i just want to think where I want to go. Places ive been to or maybe be more adventurous and hit up new places. Some of my friends think im just feeling way to hurt. Well I am hurt. Of course there are the good memories and the funny moments that always bring a smile to your face but that final moment is just the worst pain ever.

So with that said, I dont know where im going just yet. I know im pulling out the GPS: Dumbass and ready to program it no matter where i decide to go. Honestly, its too fucking hot in America so I would like a place with a much cooler climate.

We shall see. If you dont hear from me in a while just look for my updates on FB and a few blogs here and there. You can always drop me a line at slipknot9tech@outsidethenine.com

Thanks my friends and I will talk to you all soon!


Slipknot Bassist Paul Gray 1972-2010

words cannot express the sadness I feel right now. Paul was not only a friend but like a brother. Throughout the span of his career we went through alot together in a artist/tech/roadie relationship. We saw the great moments of the band and the not so great moments. Paul was a great guy. He loved music and he loved Slipknot. He had his personal demons but dont we all? I can recall the times backstage before the shows when Paul would get hyped up and even playing hurt. He was devoted to the band 100%. I wont go off saying he was one of the greatest bassists ever because he would tell you, “fuck no man im not that great.”

I just cant believe all of this. Getting phone call after call and text after text I just cant believe this. Im sitting here looking through old pics from past tours and parties and listening to random slipknot on the computer and im just completely depressed over this loss. Paul was a crucial part of Slipknot’s Nine. He may be replaced by another bassist but no one will ever replace the spirit and the charisma that Paul brought to the band, the stage and the albums.

I cant say i ever saw this day coming that a member of the band would suddenly be gone. Today, Paul has left us. Maybe it was by his own doing. Maybe it was natural causes. It doesnt matter. Paul will be missed by his bandmates, the crew, his friends and his family and mostly by his fans. There is so much more I want to say and im sure later on once i have been able to deal with this I will write more. Right now I just wish it could have been me instead of Paul. He was loved by many. He had so much to live for. He was a great musician and human being. #2 inspired me to be creative in my own musical pursuits and he was always up to hearing my shit and telling me his opinion. He always liked what I had done. I remember the times he taught me his bass lines backstage. Never can forget that.

Maybe you are reading this and you dont give a fuck about Paul or the music he helped create and make a part of the fans lives. To Slipknot fans the music he helped create is the Sountrack To Their Lives…..Today those fans lost a part of their soul as Paul died but that soul will be replaced with the never-ending legacy of his music and his accomplishments with the band. Paul was a rockstar, grammy-award winning artist, an idol a son…..he was a human being…I wish he could still be here today but God has called upon Paul for greater things in his life. His afterlife.

Slipknot fans:

Remember that Paul may be gone but he will not be forgotten. Let his memory live on within you and the music. Remember Paul. If you met him, remember the time and cherish it. Paul, wouldnt want you all to cry for him but to celebrate him and his life and celebrate the music that he loved creating with the band. Slipknot was his life. I remember him once saying to me that he couldnt believe how huge they had become. Wear your Slipknot shirts, sport your hats, jumpsuits, buttons, pants, shorts…Let the world know that Paul meant something to you even if they dont give a shit. “dont give a shit…dont ever judge me….”

I share in your grief fans. Im honored that I knew Paul and that I could interact with him. He was an awesome guy and I forever will miss his presence and the spirit he brought to that Slipknot stage. Dont think its over because Paul will be there looking down on every show and his spirit will be there rocking the fuck out with you all.

Paul, ill miss you man. I love you bro. As my tribute to you, I am getting a #2 – In Memory Tattoo…..

A Beer for Paul

Why I Choose Windows Based Systems Over Apple

….besides the fact that I think Steve Jobs is a money hungry asshole that keeps releasing next generations of the same crap with a few updates is bullshit. When you buy a Windows based PC or laptop you can upgrade and install security updates or whatever you like. Same with Linux. With Apple MACs you are strictly limited to their products and peripherals. Upgrading is a hassle because apple doesnt want you to use anything but their upgrades and accessories.

As a Windows desktop/laptop user I can choose how I want my system. I can install whatever kind of video card and memory I wish. I can run a never ending barrage of programs. I can fix up my system the way I want it. With MACs your fucked. Sure they look neat and have that stupid Apple logo on them lit up so everyone knows you are an Apple fanatic. Thats just stupid. You dont see Windows based computers with lit up Microsoft logos. As a Windows user I have full control over what I use. I can install any brand of video card I wish. Gigabyte, Asus, ATI, Nvidia…etc…I can easily install more RAM. With a MAC good luck! I recently replaced a hard drive in a friends MAC. That shit is fucked up. Literally had to unscrew shit and then fight with this lever or whatever it was to release the drive. It was fucked up. Forget about upgrading the RAM. Your going to have to take the entire thing apart. WIth a standard Windows based laptop you simply flip it over, unscrew the one screw and remove the cover. Insert new RAM and your fucking done! Easy and takes less than a minute.

People claim that Bill Gates is trying to corner the market. How? That would be Steve Jobs! He wants people to purchase his over priced crap and on top of that you have to pay even more money to upgrade it and you are limited to Apple upgrades. Fuck that! Basically its like buying a Mercedes. When you go to get the oil changed you dont take it to your local mechanic shop where Hector works. No, you take it to a Mercedes Benz dealership where they charge you a couple hundred dollars to do so. Ridiculous.

My cousin was asking me some stuff about Apple the other day. I noticed on their website that it says download the new firmware now. WTF!!! My cousin already paid $400+ for his ipod touch and now Steve Jobs wants him to pay more money to download a fucking update.. Thats fucked up man.

You know what else irks me about Apple products? Their customers! These fucktards act like their Apple gadgets are the best thing to hit the earth. Since when do you ever see a person showing off their Blackberry while listening to music or answering a call? Never. They use the damn device and put it away. iPhone users are like fucking kids with their phones. To them it is NOT a phone but an IPHONE. Ever heard and iPhone user on their coveted device? I heard a girl once say, “ill call you back in a few minutes on my iPhone” bitch its a fucking phone. call it a phone! You dont have to refer to it as an iPhone! When I am using my Blackberry I dont tell someone, “yeah man ill call you back in 15 minutes on my Blackberry. Frankly who gives a frogs fat ass what phone you have. Stop showing off your god damn phones and treat it as a damn phone. Its not God or Allah…its a fucking electronic device. What else bugs me is their apps. Seriously, an app to level something…Give me a mother fucking break man. If i paid $600 for a fucking phone im not going to use it as a god damn leveling device. What’s next? The Shit App? Tells you when to schedule your shits!

You see Steve, maybe your fantics think your products are the shit and that they are built better and their software is better. So the fuck what? People say Apple is the DOMINANT system in the world. OK Sherlocks if Apple is the DOMINANT system builder then why is it that 160 out of 200 people have a Windows based PC? Exactly because people would rather use Windows an operating system that is easier to use and let me tell you this…..Windows based PCs are not prone to viruses like you all think. I use a Windows based PC running Windows 7 Ultimate 64-Bit and same with my laptop. I do NOT get viruses and I know how to care for my systems. Its the idiots that have poor surfing habits that are prone to viruses that get them. So dont go off saying that Windows is crap because of viruses. My system boots up and shuts down faster than fuck and it does everything I want it to. It doesn’t have some goofy ass logo on it. I built my system. Based on the specs of my system and a MAC unit I bet if my system were a MAC it would have cost me about $2800 or so. Instead I built this thing myself for under $600…Done!

So Apple gadget users keep enjoying you over priced shit. Dont worry Steve Jobs will just release a new generation of the crap you just bough so you get all pissed off and return it for the newest one. Yeah he loves releasing like 8 versions of the same crap so you die-hard idiots keeps spending your money on the same thing. While your at it, keep putting your iPhones and ipod touches in people faces because you think you are the coolest cat on the earth and im not. I couldnt care less about your stupid gadget. Catch me on a bad day and ill rip it out of your hands and break the son of a bitch in front of you.

So yeah, I hate your apple products. Always have and always will. People will never learn. They will just keep feeding into to the Apple craze. You know that whole lost iPhone crap was to draw up more buzz about a new phone so that people will start talking about the iPhone again and wet their panties over the release of a new one. If you actually stand in line to purchase one of these devices every single time they come out then you are fucked! Plain and simple! Nothing is worth all that. Steve, why dont you start selling the iToilet! Yeah a toilet that plays music and videos and has a touch screen interface with colorful icons that any fanatic of yours will love. Hell even include a fucking webcam for the sick bastard that wants to send his girlfriend a pic of him on the can! Dont forget the toilet paper with little Apple logos. You can just charge people $400 per new roll of paper and every month come up with a new generation of toilet paper with different Apple logos….yeah there you go…..Sadly, you probably have a fucking iToilet at home right now…….

Bill Gates, thank you for making Windows and thanx to companies like Gigabyte, Asus, Nvidia, ATI, and others for making selections for upgrades easy. Steve, congratulations on making 99% of Americans your gadget whores. Especially women and teen girls. They love you.

An Emotional Biggest Loser

I never really watched this show until this season. All these seasons and now I finally watched it. I have been watching it pretty much since the beginning. I don’t really favor anyone more than the other but I have found Koli, Sam, O’Neil and Michael as a huge inspiration. That doesn’t mean I dont see the others as an inspiration either but those guys just have a lot of heart.

During these last few weeks I have seen weights fluctuating and Sunshine has been lucky one too many times. I like her but I think this should be a wake up call for her now. Her father is not there physically to help her and guide her. Tonight’s episode leaves her without her father. I can understand O’Neil’s decision to ask the others to vote him off for his daughter. She now needs to kick it up a notch. She is too emotional and she needs to leave those feelings behind and get 100% focused or next week she may be below that yellow line again and going home.

My votes for next week below the line is Sunshine and Ashley or Koli. Either way, every single one of the contestants has accomplished so much. Those that are home now have continued their journey and still are succeeding. Im glad that they used Texas for the emphasis of one of the fattest states in America. It really is. The remaining 7 contestants did an outstanding job motivating others and helping give them the inspiration to continue on with their own weight loss goals. They are living proof that it IS possible when the impossible is believed.

Each contestant gives it their all. Even if they fall short of their goals on the show they give it their all. That is worth more than any monetary prize. The prize is their success and their motivation to inspire others. As I stated earlier the guys that have inspired me to kick it up a notch in my own fitness, each of them has given me and im sure others motivation to succeed. The show may be called the Biggest Loser but they really are the Biggest Winners. To go into a show and lose the numbers they have lost is incredible. The amounts they have lost total has been over a ton….a ton!! Thats alot of fat…This episode has been by far the best I have seen yet. The stakes will get higher and more emotional but thanks to their heart, a small number of Texans have felt the inspiration of the contestants which will spread across to others. I hope that more and more kids and adults in TX and across the country will put those video game controllers down and stop eating crappy fast foods and start looking into changing their health and their lives.

I have been on my own emotional roller coaster losing weight. I lose a considerable amount and then its like I lose a pound or two. It sucks but no matter the highs or lows we have to just push on and keep doing what we do. Losing weight is not easy by any means. It makes you cry, sweat, break down…etc…Thats all part of the process. For the guy that starts off at 302 pounds and two weeks later weighs in at 298. Thats accomplishment. For the woman that weighs 168 and 14 days later is at 154. Thats accomplishment. Or maybe the few that only lose 2 pounds in two weeks. That is still accomplishment. We bash ourselves over and over again because we dont reach our goals. I WANTED TO LOSE 10 POUNDS someone shouts but falls short. This is not a game. It is fitness. It is health. No one ever said it would be easy or that it would feel great. When you first start your workouts and change of diet you feel sick. You feel horrible. You feel like this is all for nothing. Why bother? Why should I do this? Im still going to be the fat guy/girl everyone said I would be back in school. NO YOU ARE NOT! Everyone can lose weight. It doesn’t matter if you are 15, 21, 28, 34, 45, 67….it doesnt matter. Everyone can do their best. Giving it your all is what matters. So what if you only lost 2 pounds. That is two pounds. Goto the grocery store and pick up a 2 pound pack of hamburger meat. Feel that? Thats what you just lost. Look at Michael this week. 15 pounds lost! You can do that too. You have to learn that the scale reads just numbers. You may like what it says and you may not. Exercise is just part of the equation. You dont have gas for your car, it wont go. You dont eat healthy, you get fatter. With good exercise and eating habits you can lose the weight you want.

So what if you only have 15 minutes to spare. Thats 15 minutes you can walk or do some cardio. Lift some weights. Don’t own any? Use some heavy books. There is no excuse for it. People will say they want to lose weight. They see their friends, co-workers and even family members on the road to success and they hear those haunting words, “i lost 12 pounds.” Then they feel disgraced that it was not them. Find the motivation. Get up and make a change in your life. Do it for your wife/husband, your kids, your parents…Whoever. Don’t be the person that doesn’t get to see their only son or daughter get married and have kids. Live a long life and grow old with someone…or alone if your like me!! LOL..

Everyone has the motivation. If you have thought of losing weight at any point in your life then you were motivated. The problem is you set too high expectations for it. Your not going to lose 160 pounds like any of these contestants in a short period of time. These contestants have been in a fixed environment and had supervision throughout all their workouts. At home, work and even on the road if you are like me you have to take it upon yourself to get up off your lazy ass and DO IT! Dont bask in your sorrows because someone you know lost 40 pounds and you cant. YES YOU CAN! Get off your ass and motivate yourself. Believe me, once you start doing something that physicallyy makes you happy you will enjoy your workouts more. Healthy foods don’t always taste bad. Its all in your head. People say, “i dont like veggies or meat.” Learn to like them. Your not going to accomplish those goals eating Big Mac’s and Ultimate Cheeseburgers 6 times a week. Learn to eat the foods you like but cutting out condiments. Craving a hamburger? Grab some Sugar-Free Whole Grain Wheat Bread and top it with some mustard, lettuce, tomatoes, spinach and of course some lean meat. Be it turkey, lean beef or a soy……

If you cant learn to eat healthy then all the working out is for nothing. Dont be the guy/gal at the gym rushing your workout so that you can go grab a new KFC Double Down. Fuck that shit. Stop thinking YOU CANT and start thinking YOU CAN. If you want to lose weight and haven’t got the courage to do so, NOW is the time. Start a program. Get with your doctor and come up with a good workout plan and diet. Dont diet for a short time. Learn to eat healthy for the rest of your life. A few years ago my friends Rick and Kyle and I went to the cemetery. We heard our friend Charlie had died from complications of diabetes. He was in his mid-twenties. Thats sad. It may not have been because he didnt do anything about his health. Some people it just sneaks up on you and gets you before you can do something about it. It was a wake up call. When I get the urge to quit I think about that. I didnt know him as well as the other guys but when someone you know is suddenly gone because of health reasons it makes you think. “That could have been me.” No one likes the thought of that. So, I ask you now if you actually are reading this to take a pledge for your health. Start a workout routine and healthy diet. 6 months from now and a year later if you stick with it you wont regret it and you will be happier with yourself and you will motivate others. Sometimes you motivate people without even knowing but knowing makes that reward at the end so much more worth it.

I got nothing but respect for this man….

To those that decide to embark on your own journey, I wish you good luck….Over the last few days I have had a number of people tell me that I look as though I lost some weight. That is a great feeling and surely a motivational boost. JUST BRING IT!

Gill Grylls